“Dodgin Forgin” : Chronicle 52

Cats are dramatic. When I walk in my corridor and I meet Isis the cat, she stops and acts “as if” she was about to be slaughtered by the human, then runs away with big eyed panic, as if I was a dangerous goblin…

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I read about a strange Akira Kurosawa‘s tool, the Japanese director, who said, when shooting a movie, something like :

“When a scene is done, in the box, and you’re happy : go on shooting”.

Opens a little door in my head, written “Why?” on it : When you have what you need, maybe you are relaxed, then you can try new things? Or maybe the tiredness could bring another “tone”? Kubrick is said to shoot dozens of times, just to make the actors quit their easiness, their habits…

Where else could this be true? Prayers? Poetry? Training?

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Alexithymia is a word built on Greek, of course : “No words for emotions”.

It’s not really a mental disorder. It’s a difficulty identifying and describing feelings or emotions.

It’s interesting because it leads to different branches :

  1. I don’t know what I feel, I don’t have words for that.
  2. I don’t like what I feel, thus I’m afraid to find out.
  3. I don’t know what to think about what I feel, though I physically feel something, it doesn’t give me an emotion or I don’t know what would be the “proper” emotion.
  4. There’s a confusion between “the event” (outside of me) and “the sensation” (inside).

 

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I read about a study about the factors that employees consider motivating. Good wages, , interesting work, security of the job, of course, but the number one factor was “to be valued”. Really valued.

It’s not about a bonus or a “best employee of the month” challenge. It’s really something like :

“I see what you do and I appreciate what you do”.

People often do the best they can with what they got. And they wait, they need to be seen

Makes sense, right?

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Lax ways of escaping (life, a situation, boredom) should be listed :

Alcohol, sports, speedy leisures, drugs, video games…

But what if you can’t escape? Will your body find a way (accident, illness…)? Dodging forging ahead?

 

 

Thanks for reading!

 

 

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Needling each other : Chronicle 51

When synthesizers came, many musicians were amazed because “it can mimic any other instruments!”. But of course some guys began to use them for their own possibilities. Isn’t there a tool here?

When something new comes, use it as a tool to go elsewhere and explore, instead of planting it in the old soil – though it could work too, right?

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Fraternity between those who don’t play the game.

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Oblivion makes you disappear. Fame imprisons in a genre.

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Some loss of balance can lead someone to go through their ideas.

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Some police investigators are just logical and thorough. Some others have diagnostical impressionism : they have a “clinical sense” which is continuously plugged to the world and human beings…

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Rain is happy to meet grass
Grass is happy to meet rain

Claude Roy

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What helps us in friendship is not much the help that friends give us, but the trust we have in this help.

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What is the height of distress, or hardship? To not be surprised by anything.

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Maskenfreiheit, the freedom of the mask

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The Five Obstructions, Lars von Trier and Jørgen Leth, 2003

In this underrated film the iconoclastic Danish director Lars von Trier challenges experimental film-maker Jørgen Leth to remake one of his earlier films, The Perfect Human, five times, each time with a different creative constraint. The first “obstruction” imposed by von Trier, for example, was that the film had to be made in Cuba, using shots of no more than 12 frames. Another was that it had to be made as a cartoon. It’s basically these two creative egos going up against each other and it gives a fascinating insight into the film-making process, what goes on in a director’s head and how you cope with stress and constraint and challenge. It’s delicious and playful and there’s never a dull moment watching these two maestros needling each other.

Who will you ask to obstruct your work? What for?

Thanks for reading!

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Bookstopoo & Hapitoubimi : Chronicle 48

We’re at the beginning of a heatwave in France today. Sort of. Well, all my windows opened… as France fights Argentina for the football World Cup. I don’t need to watch it, because I can hear all the city screaming each time France scores a goal. 4-2 we won!

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How to tell about something which happened only one time, yet comes within the scope of a series?

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“How to catch what moves, generates, leaks, becomes, invents, slips, spurges… instead of  contemplating what we think is fixe, immuable, eternal, stable, immobile?”

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Bookstopoo should be the title of a book I’ll write one day : a LIST of good books you should have in your toilets (why in the world do you call this “restroom”??).

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Obedient to rules, no one can invent.

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You remember the past. The good things or the bad things?

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It’s called Hapitoubimi. What kind of animal is this?

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I learned about this idiom, “dodge a bullet“, it’s great!

Urban Dictionary says “If someone has dodged a bullet, they have successfully avoided a very serious problem.”, that makes sense, thought I wonder, as an ESL, what is the color of it : is it by cowardice or because you’re smart? Is it effectiveness and skillfulness, or is it, when you dodge a bullet, because you’re a lazy coward? When do you use it?

Well, I ask this because I understood also that “dodge” is something which is simply “not right”, and I found many sarcastic things about Dodge City. I also remember in Deliverance (the movie) the talking about “an old Dodge” – sounded “old wreck”.

Other words I discovered with pleasure :

  1. Honeycomb
  2. Tit for tat
  3. Betwixt

 

Have a nice day!

 

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“I can’t be touched in my sleep” & Structural Surprises : Chronicle 47

“Then he struck a match to light his cigarette, but the wind blew it out”

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I have a map of the USA on my bathroom wall. I like to wander over around when I brush my teeth. I keep being amazed by the size of the country – I discover names of roads, parks, cities. Joplin, Tulsa, Holton, Salina, Wichita, Overland Park, Oldredge! I dream to be on Road 35 with a car, a camera and 2 months free.

Also, I notice these strange grey fields : the indian reservations. When you live in Europa, it’s a bit mysterious! We only have a few images of Indians in head, mostly from movies.

So I found “Potawatomi“, thus I googled.

“Upper Mississipi River”

I really should try to know more. Maybe find a documentary, a book? I googled it. I should Instagram, maybe. Try to find a penpal…

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This morning I remembered that my country was called “La Gaule” before the Romans invaded all of it 2000 years ago. They occupied it for 500 years until defeated by the Francs. We became La France, but in the process we lost our tongue, our language, le gaulois has been replaced by le français. French language is very similar to Italian, because we made it from Latin from Roman Empire.

If Romans would not have been defeated, we would be maybe now like US’s Indian Tribes : in reservations, grey squares on a few % of the map France, talking Gaulois and organizing Casinos and other trails.

Dang, we lost our language, though. Don’t be surprised if French is a mess to learn now!

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Heeyyy maybe a tribe will attack America after 500 years of occupation, like here, and the USAns will go back to the old continent, the Indian natives will get back their country, but they will keep English to talk (with Mexicans). OK, that’s a strange mess, and a good novel to write. Please serve yourself 🙂

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“…to have had a mature man to break it down”

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I have a theory that if you live a long time under pressure (with religious or big-political parents for example), you accumulate a huge amount of… something. A steam that will eventually explode one day into bursts of nonsense and madness.

Tamed for some time by iron reason and logic, one’s brain looks like a white hot furnace/cooker, up in an ivory tower. Then beware…

  • Violence.
  • Inappropriate acts.
  • Madness.
  • Loss of common sense.

The young years, clamped in a vise, created monsters. A poopy bustling…

Ain’t it splendid that in UK, vice means two things? A clamp tool and a wrong mind.

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Picture this : puffing and crimson nurses running after a fool…

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Bernstein‘s book : “Findings”.

Preface : talking about words and music, “I find the same joys of ambiguity, structural surprises, anagrammatic play and grace of phrasing in both”.

Well, I smiled. This could be a program for my blog! Ambiguity in three other books I just bought : Sud (photos, but no legends : you don’t know where it’s taken). In Tissot (classical painting, but the rich ladies are lost and bored). In Jones (who was a man, and a woman).

Structural surprises? Strange quotes coming from nowhere? Nonsensical titles? Yes I play. It’s funny.

I probably wish my Chronicles to be heard… as if you were listening to a fool, haunted by something, having a conversation with himself about seeds & ideas…

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Time’s winged chariot…

Thanks for reading!

Real Folly : Chronicle 46

Creation is funny to watch “all along”. Phases.

Sparks. Accelerations. Drops off. Repetitions. Controls. Interventions. Inspiration. Loss. Destructions. Building. Weaving. Solving.

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Asking people what series I should Netflix, they gave me :

  • Handmaid’s Tale
  • Mr Robot
  • Black Mirror
  • End of the F… World
  • The Affair

Happily Le Monde has a blog on this : http://seriestv.blog.lemonde.fr/

Other ideas?

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Mon pantalon est décousu, si ça continue on verra le trou de

This stupid song is well known by all kids in France. It’s a rhyme, a loop, playing with words :

My trousers are unstitched if it goes on one will see the hole of my trousers are unstitched if it goes on one will see the hole of my trousers are unstitched… etc…

The trick is in French “décousu” (unstitched) rhymes with “cul” (ass). Therefore, etc…

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Annie Ernaux says that memory is a crazy properties master, providing accessories (a bed, a lamp, a fabric) needed by imagination to help rebuild itself : the memory

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I heard about a Robert De Niro speech, against Trump. Then I watched the comments on Twitter and I read all kinds of Trumpets drooling their hate about how liberals are libtards and so on. That’s the democratic game, I suppose (though in France no policital man would have the idea to separate little kids from their immigrant parents with the help of the Bible, which is a bit strange for a country… made of immigrants who sometimes came with kids). Some people I know in America are liberals, and they most of a time agree with this (which is something we have to be told, when you live in France) : rich stars telling people how to think have a devastating result, which is anger on every side. Is it true?

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When one was a kid, one was really frightened about “becoming crazy”.

Then I became adult and I saw it. A too intense friend’s wife who had strong phases of depression then grandiosity. She had to be put in a mental institution, then broke her marriage, then went to live with an obese oriental cook, then commited suicide. Madness is frightening!

Thanks for reading!

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Spatial Metaphors & Hidden Silk : Chronicle 45

I heard about this : when Bob Kennedy died his body has been put on a train and people watched it along the country. A photographer – Paul Fusco – made a book about this. Do your parents remember that?

https://www.magnumphotos.com/newsroom/politics/paul-fusco-rfk-funeral-train/

https://pro.magnumphotos.com/C.aspx?VP3=SearchResult&ALID=29YL53KW1BQ

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I watched Monika, Bergman 1953. Harsh metaphor of what disillusions of the couple are. The efforts to follow this kind of film. I grew up and I like this, but I now prefer Fellini’s.

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I watched “At Berkeley”, the documentary, with my daughter. Waow. I learned so many things! Things about America, about Universities, about teaching, about students. It’s been fascinating to hear these people talking “at this level”, being like in a classroom or within teachers talking budgets, but also disengagement from the country, or how to deal with resistance to change… Enthralling!

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People who don’t realize that they use “space metaphors” because time is not really perceived. Time will come, time flies. And Tuesday “follows” Monday, right? Time as a LINE. Will Christmas come up on us, or do we come up on Christmas? You have a meeting saturday and you want to move it ahead, which day will it be? I found whole articles on that…

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I have a real problem with a photographer, Bruce Gilden. You can Google it and hate it, but it’s not that simple. Instant rejection, OK? But why, where. What if I explore this, “though”.

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The ultimate, in Japan, is not to keep up apparences but to take care of what other people can’t see, like having an ordinary kimono lined with a rare (and unoticable) silk. Oh I love this so much.

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I Japan, people don’t say “I love you”, but “There is love when you’re here”.

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The flag of Norway contains many other flags.

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One Russian author explains that vodka is a medicine “which is not really ready”.

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Things are not what you think they are.

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Allez, a little clip from my young years. Try to read what people tell on YouTube. 1977. I was ten. Exactly in this mood.

 

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Monika, the movie, is well known because the character, betraying his partner, suddenly watches the camera (therefore us). It’s a shock (no character is allowed to watch the audience, right?). She takes us on. She makes us a witness, shows that she knows we know, and seems to eye-say : “So what?”.

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With climate change, they say that south of France will be more flooded, and north of France will discover tornadoes, like in Kansas…

 

Have a nice day!

 

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Dans tes classeurs de lycée
Y a tes rêves et tes secrets
Tous ces mots que tu n’dis jamais
Des mots d’amour et de tendresse
Des mots de femme
Que tu caches et qu’on condamne
Que tu caches petite Anne

Dans tes classeurs de lycée
Y a du sang et y a des pleurs
Les premières blessures de ton cœur
Les premières blessures
Les premières déchirures
Qui font des bleus à ton âme
Qui font des bleus petite Anne

Dans les cafés du lycée
Faut que tu bluffes, que tu mentes
Autour des diabolos menthe
Quand tu racontes les nuits

Du dernier été
De tous ces premiers amants
Que tu n’as eus qu’en rêvant

Dans tes classeurs de lycée
Y a tes rêves et tes secrets
Tous ces mots que tu n’dis jamais
Des mots d’amour et de tendresse
Des mots de femme
Que tu caches et qu’on condamne
Que tu caches petite Anne

Hail or Meteor : Chronicle 44

What happens after emancipation?

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Some monsters take whatever passes by and transform it in numbers.

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Yesterday I saw a mother in the toy store, like I see many times a day, but she was different. Two kids, like 4 and 6. The little one targeted a blue box and began his little game with mum, trying every angle :

  1. Yelling at her
  2. Showing her
  3. “Look I need it!”
  4. Bawling his eyes out
  5. Hitting her knees
  6. “It’s soooo small”
  7. Letting go and sobbing
  8. “Why you don’t waaaannt”
  9. “Pleaaaaase!!!!”
  10. Etc

Brother tried to help, showing the box to mum in silence, then putting it back. The mother was mumbling a little, incoherent, absent, not like “I don’t know what to do”, but absent in herself. Maybe she was on medication, barely watching hearing her little nasty boy. The question became, from “Why the heck do you bring kids in a toy store?” (which is inconsistent), to “Why does she stay here barely mumbling next to a desperate boy who becomes drank in tears?”. She stayed around for like twenty minutes, 98% indifferent, maybe waiting for someone, maybe drowned in cold life-hate. I don’t know. It ended badly : she was absent-mindedly looking at postcards, the boys was rolling himself on the floor, crying, screaming, dribbling, with his brother catching him to prevent him to go back to the toyshop section.

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A desire for change, at all costs, so strong that you can accept to be in a worse position after this change.

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After emancipation came madness – instead of being free, we thought we were.

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Jünger : when a chain of actions begins by a strange fact, every stage, link, will stay true to this style.

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When someone’s good somewhere it’s strange to see him/her bad elsewhere.

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Yes some conversations build instantly like a common roof.

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When you trust someone and say : “Don’t tell me! If you ask me, I’ll answer no. Do it!”.

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When you’re a blogger and you discover the articles (written a long time ago) which has been read while you were sleeping, you are tempted to read them again, and… it makes sense. Sort of.

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Is my blog dishevelled? Oh yeah.

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The nasty, ugly passage from a perfection to another.

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During a lecture a linguist made the claim that although a double negative in English implies a positive meaning, there is no language in which a double positive implies a negative. To which someone in the back of the room responded : “Yeah, right.”

Have a nice day!

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